I'm not even..

Or I don't even..

There are better days. Not every day is down in the dumps, I wouldn't say "I'm good" but maybe better than most. And then there are days like today, yesterday.. but today is a bit worse. Maybe it's because I've thought about things that stress me out, maybe it's because of the phone calls I knew I had to make, that caused me to feel so lethargic. I'm kicking myself because last Wednesday I received a call from my insurance. She asked me if it was a good time to talk and I said no. I was 30mins away from a meeting with a bank advisor to re-evaluate my mortgage and I needed to be in a right mind frame to be able to talk to her (the bank advisor is also female). So the insurance lady said she would contact me the next morning. She never did. It's been a week now.. did I misunderstand? I didn't catch her name, and just calling people stresses me out to no end. But at the same time, I need to know if my insurance is accepting my prolonged work absence. One of my stressors was lack of finances, I can tell you, not having a paycheck come in... it's not helping me much. My therapist should be back soon, if not already, and I would really like to go see her, but I don't have $70 to pay for my session. The bf is shelling out for some of my costs already, but he has his own expenses and I feel bad asking for more.. If I don't get paid soon, I'll also have to ask him to shell out for my bills..

I joined a gym in the last week of September, injured my back on the first day.. I'm such a klutz. My back is better now, not 100% but better. I went to the gym again Monday & Tuesday of this week, Wednesday I stayed home and exercised with Jillian Michael's 30 day shred (what a workout!). Yesterday I was lethargic, today was worse. Lethargy and depression.. bouts of uncontrolled crying. Yay me -_-
Managed to make it out a bit yesterday and today with the bf.